I can relate.

In order to be successful at wrestling you can’t rely on sight, your reaction will be too slow. You have to react to what you feel. Subtle shifts in weight, tell on your opponents intentions but it takes years to develope that sense.

When you grab onto a new wrestler, they feel…lost. They don’t have any intentions or their intentions are all wrong. Their shifting weight is not subtle as they bluntly try to push you around.  You help them fall on their face. Both confused, they don’t know what is happening and you are trying to figure out the reasoning behind their flailing about. It is an awkward sensation.

I imagine that reading the efforts of a new writer is similar.  A writer that has honed their craft might feel the same frustrations reading my work.

I will apply what I learned wrestling to writing. It is okay that I get things wrong as long as I recognize it and fix my style. 

Thanks for coaching me. I will practice limiting my filter words, Improving on showing not telling and understanding POV.